It’s 11am and today is the day the Lord has made. I keep repeating that as I also recite proverbs 3:5-6 , lean on HIM… not your mind , Lizzie ! I’m uneasy, I’m scared , I’m nervous … let me explain….
Last Thursday I took a pregnancy test and To our surprise , it was positive… here we go again … We are thrilled, and terrified. If you scroll down a few months back you can read about our answered prayers and painful miscarriage in January. My dear husband and I have been trying to rejoice but we also have reservations after the last time and aren’t ready to believe it until we see the baby today. Well, until I see the baby today , due to Covid he is not allowed to come into the facility so that’s tough.
I feel alone right this moment. I know God is here , but I feel alone waiting the 5 hours until my “make it or break it “ appointment . Forrest is at work and I will not see him before my appointment, I have to do this all alone , I want my husband ….. praise God , Jesus promised to never leave me or forsake me , that he will be my husband.
Usually when I blog I try to have more structure. I try to include more scripture. Today I’m struggling with this. Today all I have is “trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding…” today I have fear. Fear Does not come from God , we know this … but God addresses how we deal with fear , so he knew it would happen. Today; I’m on my knees, Help me Jesus.
We will be ok either way. God is still good either way. We are not alone and we are not forsaken. His ways are above ours … We are prepared for the worst and hoping for the best. Thank You , father for this baby. We trust you. Today is the day that the Lord has made and today I’m having a baby in the spring!
Prayers welcomed today. Thank you.